less is more

"you are much more than this"
*disclaimer**** i am not depressed. this isn't one of those types of things. so don't think that**

a close friend told me they didn't like the person i am anymore. that the person i was two years ago was much more than i am now and i should be that person again. well people change, bud. maybe i chose to be less because i couldn't stand everyone expecting more from me. if you are more, then expectations are just one more thing to add to the list that is written on your arms. the list that bleeds through your skin into your blood and sinks itself through your organs to your feet only to become a part of you. the list of things you're supposed to be that consumes you and makes you forget who you really are. so maybe yes, maybe i am less than i was before. 
but sometimes you have to become less to figure out how much more you can be. 

i don't know who the real me is. or even if there are such things as real "me's" or "you's" or anyone out there. it doesn't mean i'm going to stay a static person my whole life if i find something comfortable to live in. stagnant is not synonymous with more. more means changing. and maybe changing makes one less, but i believe that the change will ultimately bring about good. more. more good in people. isn't that what the world needs now? so, to make things full circle, it's okay to be less. less means more time for peace, more time for discovering, creating, finding. and less means making mistakes. even though they may drive a loved one so crazy that he goes into a shock coma and won't wake up until the mistakes are fixed. so be it. at least you know who you are and that's not going to stop anything. 
the end.


i didn't mean for this to be a self empowering post. i meant it to be a rant about someone telling me i was bad. but perhaps this self empowering post is just what i needed to get out of my system and into someone else's.